Let me set the scene.
It’s one pm-lunch is finished, and all the munchkins are down for their naps. I have some decent energy for once, so I stare at the blank wall in the living room. I’ve been longing to hang pictures on it since we moved in this March. My brain commences to formulate placements, colors, arrangements, etc…
“I really should wash another load of laundry.”
“The bookkeeping needs updating.”
“The sink is full of dishes from both breakfast AND lunch.”
“The entire yard needs cleaning up and mowing.”
Sounds familiar, doesn’t it? Odds are, if you’re a mom of little munchkins (or children of any age), you too have dealt with the mental battle of duty vs desire. And when you have a VERY TEENY TINY bit of time to handle anything alone, more often than not, duty wins.
Now don’t get me wrong, household chores, meal prep, caring for your husband and children need to be and should be done. It’s one way we show our family that we love them dearly, a way to serve and grow. But they also need us to be…well….US.
I realized recently that I had stopped giving myself permission to do things that I loved to do! Obviously no one had asked me to do so (I did it all by myself..) God has given me passions and loves, and expects me to use them for His glory as well as enjoy those gifts. And I had suppressed them under the guise of caring for my family, when ultimately, my family needs me to be me, not a robot version of what I thought I should be.
They don’t need a wilted Natashya.
So I decided to start giving myself permission to say, “yes”.
“Yes” to hanging the picture frames.
“Yes” to planning and researching how to decorate this house, even though we may not be in it long.
“Yes” to reorganizing closets (because I LOVE to organize, whether it really needs it or not)
“Yes” to setting aside the chores for a while so I can sit and marvel at the life moving within me.
“Yes” to turning up some Sia and getting my preggo samba on for ten minutes.
And surprisingly, since then, I have found it easier to say yes to the kids. Jump on the bed for a while? Yes! Drink your morning cup of milk using the play tea set? Yes! Wear your princess dress and dance to Disney music? Yes! Drag out all the beach towels and name them? YES!
Can I tell you something? It feels good to say “Yes”.
Give yourself permission today, fellow mama. Permission to do something you love, no matter how simple, silly, or unproductive it may seem. It will produce more than you know.